Monster

I feel so hideous.
Jealousy turns me black and blue. 
Like a scaly creature idolizing a swan...
Crumbling instead.
But forcing myself to smile.
Hopefully this will be gone.
In a little while I--
Will love myself.
Know I made fearfully and wonderfully made.
Someday.
Today I let the tears fall.
Just want to feel anything.
Anything at all...
Just the good.
All I can handle.